Everything.

I know I should know better
There are days when I’m okay
And for a moment
For a moment I find hope
But there are days when I’m not okay
And I need your help
So I’m letting go

I need you to know
I’m not through the night
Some days I’m still fighting to walk towards the light

(Courage by Superchick)

I don’t really feel like sleeping, it’s just something that’s just not on my to do list. I should probably catch up on the mountain of homework that’s on my stand, but that seems rather dull.

Le Petit Prince (The Little Prince) has got to be the cutest book in the universe, especially with all the pictures. I have the feeling thought that it’s going to make me not want to grow up, because I was looking at some quotes today and it seem to favor the life of a child.

Exciting news! I used the self checkout at the library! It was superb and really easy. Best of all though I didn’t have to pay my fine hehe. Speaking about libraries reminds me that I have so much to read. I would have time to read though, if I actually sat down and read. The problem is a lot has been on my mind lately and when I start reading I feel guilty about not working on some crazy school assignment. Then I get on the computer after I finished a chapter or so of a book and try to work. The only problem with my plan is the computer has internet capabilities, and I get distracted fairly easily. For example right now I should be doing some crazy Huck Finn study questions (that should be finished) but I’m writing a blog instead.

I did work a bit though. I finished part of my science lab!

*victory dance*

The “Snow White Program” refers to a program written by Scientology Founder L. Ron Hubbard in 1973. The purpose of this program was to legally correct a number of false governmental reports about the Church of Scientology, its leaders and members. (random fact for you Olivia)

-Clover

oh, When you would be here in my arms!

Urg. I have a speech to write for English, which I’m completely avoiding btw.

Why on earth did I pick

Nihilism

oh well, I’ll figure something out I’m sure.

It’s just that I’m reading about the author and he doesn’t like Nihilism and his book is NOT supporting it.  (at least that’s what I’ve read, I’m still lacking a little research) It seems like the author is more of an absurdism than anything, even though he doesn’t like to be ‘labeled’.

fun quote things about Nilisium

• Nihilism is the belief that all values are baseless and that nothing can be known or communicated.
• A true nihilist would believe in nothing, have no loyalties, and no purpose other than, perhaps, an impulse to destroy.
• Everything is the same, nothing is worthwhile, the world is senseless, knowledge strangles.  
• Never to have lived is best, ancient writers say;
  Never to have drawn the breath of life, never to have looked into the eye of day;
  The second best’s a gay goodnight and quickly turn away.
• Nihilism: any aim is lacking, any answer to the question “why” is lacking. What does nihilism mean?—that the supreme values devalued themselves.

OH and some crazy songs have been stuck in my head lately, all songs that i used to love <3 (still do)

“Tourniquet” by Evanescence

do you remember me
lost for so long
will you be on the other side
or will you forget me
I’m dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
am I too lost to be saved
am I too lost?

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

“Graduation (Friends Forever)” by Vitamin C

Stay at home talking on the telephone
We would get so excited and we’d get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life’s not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

“Beauty From Pain” by Superchick

After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i’ve cried my last, there’ll be beauty from pain
Though it won’t be today,
Someday i’ll hope again
And there’ll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain

(and last but not least)

“Revenge on the Radio” by Danger is my Middle Name

One day you’ll hear me singing on the radio
a song that I wrote for the lies you told

Lights out this joke’s on you!
Like a car crash right on cue
or a stuck trigger and my bad mood
on the radio

Guess I’ll get to work

-Clover