IB playlist part 2

Track # 8
Slow Me down by Emmy Rossum
“Rushing and racing and running in circles
Moving so fast I’m forgetting my purpose
Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning
Getting nowhere

My head and my heart are colliding chaotic
Pace of the world I just wish I could stop it
Try to appear like I’ve got it together
I’m falling apart”

Although this one sure is fairly obvious, let me break it down for you just in case you’re in melt down mode today. Basically it’s about how we try to get so much done within such a small, constricted amount of time yet ultimately we get nowhere.

Track #9
The Rain Don’t Last Forever by Hope
Emotional breakdown day song, ‘nuff said.

“Sometimes my burdens get so heavy
And it seems too hard to bear
Sometimes I feel so empty
And it feels like no one’s there
Somebody said that nothing lasts forever
Just the storm so I’ve been told
But it seems that when it rains it pours”

Track #10
What Do We Know by Thousand Food Krutch
“What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?”

TOK much?

Track #11
Going Under by Evanescence
Everything learned in elementary school just doesn’t seem like it fits, especially in history. Have you always been taught the brief condensed, filtered version?

“I’m going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I’m falling forever (falling forever)
I’ve got to break through
I’m going under

Blurring and stirring – the truth and the lies.
(So I don’t know what’s real) So I don’t know what’s real and what’s not (and what’s not)
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can’t trust myself anymore”

Track #12
Wait for You by Elliott Yamin
The song your dear love one’s sing as your go through 2 years of this.

“So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie
What you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life”

Track # 13
Never Too Late by Three Days Grace
The suicidal cry of the IBers
“Even if I say
It’ll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we’ll turn it all around
‘Cause it’s not too late
It’s never too late”

Track #14
Help! By The Beatles
The Song we all sing deep down.

“Help, I need somebody,
Help, not just anybody,
Help, you know I need someone, help.”

Track # 15
Highway to Hell by ACDC
True that.
“I’m on a highway to hell
On the highway to hell
Highway to hell
I’m on the highway to hell”

Track #16
Ashes and Wine by A Fine Frenzy
Now this song can easily apply to IB when faced with a certain situation. You and your friend have been through IB all of this time, you even faced the horrors of pre-IB together, and now your friend is leaving, dropping IB!!! 

“Don’t know what to do anymore
I’ve lost the only love worth fighting for
I’ll drown in my tears
Don’t let him see
That would show you, that would make you hurt like me

All the same
I don’t want mudslinging games
It’s just a shame
To let you walk away”

Track # 17
Poison by Groove Coverage
IB enjoys watching us suffer.

“Your cruel device
your blood, like ice
One look, could kill
My pain, your thrill…”

Track # 18
You Raise Me Up by Josh Groban
Friends of yours will raise your spirits when you feel down and out. They will help you feel better about not finishing an assignment, having to redo the world lit paper, and the other pressures that you will feel through the course of this program. Always remember IB is like one giant family, we care but we still are always in competition with each other. 

“When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.”

Track # 19
Pain by Three Days Grace
If IB was a person this is the song it would sing. It would sing it loud and proud showing us all that’s screwed up in the world.

“You’re sick of feeling numb
You’re not the only one
I’ll take you by the hand
And I’ll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn’t work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you’ll understand”

Track #20
Won’t Back Down by Tom Petty
Well your still in IB right? Well then this song is self-explanatory.

“Well I wont back down, no I wont back down
You can stand me up at the gates of hell
But I wont back down

Gonna stand my ground, wont be turned around
And Ill keep this world from draggin me down
Gonna stand my ground and I wont back down”

Track #21
Stand My Ground by Within Temptations
Goes along with the last one, but I figured you might need two songs like this in a row just for moral support.

“Though this might just be the ending
of the life I held so dear
but I won’t run, there’s no turning back from here

Stand my ground, I won’t give in
No more denying, I gotta face it
Won’t close my eyes and hide the truth inside
If I don’t make it, someone else will
Stand My Ground”

Track #22
Runaway By Groove Coverage
Now the first part kinda goes along with Runaway by Cartel, but with a more techno-ish beat.

“I want to runaway
As long as you are by my side
I’m singin’
OoO I try to runaway
But I can’t find a place to hide
…
Now the second part on the other hand is very important when faced with IB. Do not lose your individuality in this program, don’t become another homework zombie. Show IB whose boss! Take command and get control. You can do it.

No, I am not
Turning down my voice
Until you understand
There’s nothing to command
Until you realize
That we can touch the skies
Can you feel?
It’s out of control
Can you feel?
There’s nothing at all”

and when it rains

Hello neglected blog.

I’ve missed you |————————————————–this —————much——————————————————————-|

really I have!

School is just a pest and I swear sometimes its like I don’t have a life outside of it, but I know thats 100% not true. I mean I’m pretty good at balancing work, school, ballet, and cleaning the house

I’m dang proud of myself, although it will probably be HELL by finals, not looking forward to those.

btw I’m not doing my science lab right now, just though I should let you know, instead I’m here writting to you like a long, lost friend.

I’ll be honest dear bloggy I’m kinda lost right now. What should I do with my life? I have this need to help people, that would probably be the most fulling kind of job I could ever get. How can I help people though? I’ll think of something sooner or later… Maybe some type of crazy politician that actually tries to help the people. That would be swell. oooor someone who works for the WFP (World Food Program)

Urg that reminds me (somehow) that I still have to clean. I’ve become a semi-cleanness person, which is really hard to do in my house because my mom’s not the neatest. Don’t think she’s messy though its just she doesn’t put things away (me either) and she doesn’t have time, she has a hard job and whatnot :\

Random thoughts that jumped into my mind while writing this

1. mmm pancakes sound good right now
2. I wanna just sleep 1 full day
3. eww laundry
4. I wanna go on the roof
5. make that chocolate chip pancakes
6. I wanna poke someone
7. What do I think about stay at home mothers?
8. Could I ever do that?
9. naw
10. eww math
11. chocolate chip muffins
12. orange juice
13. How can I balance my gym schedule?
14. I wonder if I’m going to have to present my English thing tomorrow.
15. I wish I could pronounce ‘idea’ and ‘jukebox’
16. ow my eye
17. mmm muffins
18. chocolate chips
19. pancakes!
20. I should defiantly go to Ihop this week.

I love how I drawl conclusions.

latter gatters, (and Olivia the only person I know out of the 200something people who read this, lamos jk )

-Clover

oh, When you would be here in my arms!

Urg. I have a speech to write for English, which I’m completely avoiding btw.

Why on earth did I pick

Nihilism

oh well, I’ll figure something out I’m sure.

It’s just that I’m reading about the author and he doesn’t like Nihilism and his book is NOT supporting it.  (at least that’s what I’ve read, I’m still lacking a little research) It seems like the author is more of an absurdism than anything, even though he doesn’t like to be ‘labeled’.

fun quote things about Nilisium

• Nihilism is the belief that all values are baseless and that nothing can be known or communicated.
• A true nihilist would believe in nothing, have no loyalties, and no purpose other than, perhaps, an impulse to destroy.
• Everything is the same, nothing is worthwhile, the world is senseless, knowledge strangles.  
• Never to have lived is best, ancient writers say;
  Never to have drawn the breath of life, never to have looked into the eye of day;
  The second best’s a gay goodnight and quickly turn away.
• Nihilism: any aim is lacking, any answer to the question “why” is lacking. What does nihilism mean?—that the supreme values devalued themselves.

OH and some crazy songs have been stuck in my head lately, all songs that i used to love <3 (still do)

“Tourniquet” by Evanescence

do you remember me
lost for so long
will you be on the other side
or will you forget me
I’m dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
am I too lost to be saved
am I too lost?

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

“Graduation (Friends Forever)” by Vitamin C

Stay at home talking on the telephone
We would get so excited and we’d get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life’s not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

“Beauty From Pain” by Superchick

After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i’ve cried my last, there’ll be beauty from pain
Though it won’t be today,
Someday i’ll hope again
And there’ll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain

(and last but not least)

“Revenge on the Radio” by Danger is my Middle Name

One day you’ll hear me singing on the radio
a song that I wrote for the lies you told

Lights out this joke’s on you!
Like a car crash right on cue
or a stuck trigger and my bad mood
on the radio

Guess I’ll get to work

-Clover

I have spent all of my life

Okay T.O.K was pretty intense today, but in that good kind of way. I’m pretty sure all I have to do today is math homework and work on some history.

Anyway I’ve decided to start researching colleges. I’m pretty set that I want to go out of state. I’m debating between;

1. California
2. New York
3. Chicago

(can you tell that I kinda want to get the feel of a real urban city?)

On top of picking a college I always have to get a major. Eeek. I was thinking about researching double majors because those sound pretty fun.

I think I want to minor in Japanese, but still clueles.Oh well a little bit of thought will make it all come around.

Sorry ’bout the short post, but I’ve got homework I should be getting to.

-Clover

the tears that I’ve cried

So schools been going for about 2 days, although I already feel like I’ve been in there for weeks!

IB makes me a bit nervous but I think I can pull it off. I’m putting off my homework for a tad bit to write this blog because my schedule book says that I have to write this and you know how I am about getting everything done. Other than the word blog todays square space says that I have to finish my math, french, and practice my french verbs. Fun stuff other than that I have the amount of sleep I got the night preceding today on there. (which was 4 hours and 30mins btw)

Oh well C’est la vie.

-Clover