Just say it again and mean it

So did you know Google is now tracking flu trends across the United States via search engine?
http://www.google.org/flutrends/
Here’s a link if you don’t believe me…
They way they do it is pretty simple, and rather in genius. They figure that when people begin to feel sick they will search symptoms and other such things, and with our addiction to the internet most people will do this long before they see a doctor. After the searches have been on they determine which areas are getting a large number of searches and post a flu warning for that state.

What I want to know is in that giant mathematical equation, they problem have programmed in, do they take in consideration the number of the population for each state and the amount without internet access?

-Clover

Everything.

I know I should know better
There are days when I’m okay
And for a moment
For a moment I find hope
But there are days when I’m not okay
And I need your help
So I’m letting go

I need you to know
I’m not through the night
Some days I’m still fighting to walk towards the light

(Courage by Superchick)

I don’t really feel like sleeping, it’s just something that’s just not on my to do list. I should probably catch up on the mountain of homework that’s on my stand, but that seems rather dull.

Le Petit Prince (The Little Prince) has got to be the cutest book in the universe, especially with all the pictures. I have the feeling thought that it’s going to make me not want to grow up, because I was looking at some quotes today and it seem to favor the life of a child.

Exciting news! I used the self checkout at the library! It was superb and really easy. Best of all though I didn’t have to pay my fine hehe. Speaking about libraries reminds me that I have so much to read. I would have time to read though, if I actually sat down and read. The problem is a lot has been on my mind lately and when I start reading I feel guilty about not working on some crazy school assignment. Then I get on the computer after I finished a chapter or so of a book and try to work. The only problem with my plan is the computer has internet capabilities, and I get distracted fairly easily. For example right now I should be doing some crazy Huck Finn study questions (that should be finished) but I’m writing a blog instead.

I did work a bit though. I finished part of my science lab!

*victory dance*

The “Snow White Program” refers to a program written by Scientology Founder L. Ron Hubbard in 1973. The purpose of this program was to legally correct a number of false governmental reports about the Church of Scientology, its leaders and members. (random fact for you Olivia)

-Clover

it touches

(that was for you Olivia)

So it’s about midnight here, and I’ve been thinking about religion. I know that’s not a very fun topic, but don’t worry I’m not going to go all crazy in-dept about it, partially because its midnight and my thoughts are all a little bit out there and I’m slightly sleep deprived.

Well the United States hardly ever adds amendments to the Constitution, this is mainly due to the fact that is semi difficult and unneeded to add everything as an amendment, but over time the Constitution is changed by implied powers. Implied powers can often change to fit what is needed. Can this apply to the Bible?

Everybody has their own personally interpretation because no mater how long you go to church they’re not going to get through the whole book and tell you what every part means, and even at that each church adds a different voice to the book (I would know because I have been quiet a church hopper).

For example, The Old Testament is always looked at differently and it’s my understanding that the majority disregard a lot of it. I need more research into this, and I also have to read the whole thing straight through, not just my little study bible hehe. From what I’ve heard there’s a couple of sides, one claims that the behavior of God was natural because it was before the time of Jesus, while others sarcastically question if God is like that anymore.

Well that was my two cents, I hope it made a tiny bit of sense, but if it didn’t oh well it’s late and I’m not going to proof read what I wrote, because I can proof read something that isn’t necessary complete.

Anyway I think it will be interesting to explore.

Goodnight loves (even though I’m defiantly not going to bed for a loong time)

- Clover

on this side of town

You know that feeling when you are just so extremely stressed that you want to just explode?

Well I hope you don’t, because exploding is really bad for your skin. Anyway I’ve noticed that when I need to sit down and get a bunch of things done (result of a bunch of procrastination) I make lists like mad. The bad thing to this habit is once I add something to the list I feel like I don’t have to do it anymore, and that just leads to more procrastination.

On the positive side, when I just need to relax I’ll go to this site I have going and work on it. Just guess what the site is? Pretty much a giant list!! Well several list, and it’s really quiet organized. Je suis très fier!

I was working on it all little while ago, while I wait for 1pm. At one I’m going to try this crazy, online tutor program that the library has set up, because I need tons and tons of help in Math. Ew math…

Well I’m off to see if I can do any of that math before I get help.

MyNerdyList just if you want to peak and gets some ideas maybe for your own little list(s)

-Clover

P.S. Next time I swear to write a more insightful blog, or maybe I’ll just rant on about math, who knows?

and when it rains

Hello neglected blog.

I’ve missed you |————————————————–this —————much——————————————————————-|

really I have!

School is just a pest and I swear sometimes its like I don’t have a life outside of it, but I know thats 100% not true. I mean I’m pretty good at balancing work, school, ballet, and cleaning the house

I’m dang proud of myself, although it will probably be HELL by finals, not looking forward to those.

btw I’m not doing my science lab right now, just though I should let you know, instead I’m here writting to you like a long, lost friend.

I’ll be honest dear bloggy I’m kinda lost right now. What should I do with my life? I have this need to help people, that would probably be the most fulling kind of job I could ever get. How can I help people though? I’ll think of something sooner or later… Maybe some type of crazy politician that actually tries to help the people. That would be swell. oooor someone who works for the WFP (World Food Program)

Urg that reminds me (somehow) that I still have to clean. I’ve become a semi-cleanness person, which is really hard to do in my house because my mom’s not the neatest. Don’t think she’s messy though its just she doesn’t put things away (me either) and she doesn’t have time, she has a hard job and whatnot :\

Random thoughts that jumped into my mind while writing this

1. mmm pancakes sound good right now
2. I wanna just sleep 1 full day
3. eww laundry
4. I wanna go on the roof
5. make that chocolate chip pancakes
6. I wanna poke someone
7. What do I think about stay at home mothers?
8. Could I ever do that?
9. naw
10. eww math
11. chocolate chip muffins
12. orange juice
13. How can I balance my gym schedule?
14. I wonder if I’m going to have to present my English thing tomorrow.
15. I wish I could pronounce ‘idea’ and ‘jukebox’
16. ow my eye
17. mmm muffins
18. chocolate chips
19. pancakes!
20. I should defiantly go to Ihop this week.

I love how I drawl conclusions.

latter gatters, (and Olivia the only person I know out of the 200something people who read this, lamos jk )

-Clover

Courage is…

Yay Season finally of The Secret Life of the American Teenager was on yesterday, and it was super amazing. If you didn’t get to see it then you have to!!!

Even though the show is a bit…. well umm…. cheesy

Anyway on towards politics.

http://cosmos.bcst.yahoo.com/up/player/popup/?cl=9696725

…

I’m not impressed by this lady. I don’t know politics and God should just not mix, but thats my own opinion.

Now to bash McCain a little

(from FactCheck.org)

He made some flubs in accepting the nomination.

• McCain claimed that Obama’s health care plan would “force small businesses to cut jobs” and would put “a bureaucrat … between you and your doctor.” In fact, the plan exempts small businesses, and those who have insurance now could keep the coverage they have.

• McCain attacked Obama for voting for “corporate welfare” for oil companies. In fact, the bill Obama voted for raised taxes on oil companies by $300 million over 11 years while providing $5.8 billion in subsidies for renewable energy, energy efficiency and alternative fuels.
• McCain said oil imports send “$700 billion a year to countries that don’t like us very much.” But the U.S. is on track to import a total of only $536 billion worth of oil at current prices, and close to a third of that comes from Canada, Mexico and the United Kingdom.
• He promised to increase use of “wind, tide [and] solar” energy, though his actual energy plan contains no new money for renewable energy. He has said elsewhere that renewable sources won’t produce as much as people think.
• He called for “reducing government spending and getting rid of failed programs,” but as in the past failed to cite a single program that he would eliminate or reduce.
• He said Obama would “close” markets to trade. In fact, Obama, though he once said he wanted to “renegotiate” the North American Free Trade Agreement, now says he simply wants to try to strengthen environmental and labor provisions in it.

-Clover

oh, When you would be here in my arms!

Urg. I have a speech to write for English, which I’m completely avoiding btw.

Why on earth did I pick

Nihilism

oh well, I’ll figure something out I’m sure.

It’s just that I’m reading about the author and he doesn’t like Nihilism and his book is NOT supporting it.  (at least that’s what I’ve read, I’m still lacking a little research) It seems like the author is more of an absurdism than anything, even though he doesn’t like to be ‘labeled’.

fun quote things about Nilisium

• Nihilism is the belief that all values are baseless and that nothing can be known or communicated.
• A true nihilist would believe in nothing, have no loyalties, and no purpose other than, perhaps, an impulse to destroy.
• Everything is the same, nothing is worthwhile, the world is senseless, knowledge strangles.  
• Never to have lived is best, ancient writers say;
  Never to have drawn the breath of life, never to have looked into the eye of day;
  The second best’s a gay goodnight and quickly turn away.
• Nihilism: any aim is lacking, any answer to the question “why” is lacking. What does nihilism mean?—that the supreme values devalued themselves.

OH and some crazy songs have been stuck in my head lately, all songs that i used to love <3 (still do)

“Tourniquet” by Evanescence

do you remember me
lost for so long
will you be on the other side
or will you forget me
I’m dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
am I too lost to be saved
am I too lost?

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

“Graduation (Friends Forever)” by Vitamin C

Stay at home talking on the telephone
We would get so excited and we’d get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life’s not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

“Beauty From Pain” by Superchick

After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i’ve cried my last, there’ll be beauty from pain
Though it won’t be today,
Someday i’ll hope again
And there’ll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain

(and last but not least)

“Revenge on the Radio” by Danger is my Middle Name

One day you’ll hear me singing on the radio
a song that I wrote for the lies you told

Lights out this joke’s on you!
Like a car crash right on cue
or a stuck trigger and my bad mood
on the radio

Guess I’ll get to work

-Clover

Waiting for tonight!

I just finished The Stranger for English and wow that was semi-depressing and dream shattering.

Today I got my essay back and holy cow did my person have fun circling and writing, but that’s okay because it’s going to help me so much when I rewrite it this weekend.

I’m sick of writing/blogging about school so time to talk about a song. If you’ve ever seen Quest for Camelot you’ll know this song

I know the sound of each rock and stone
And I embrace what others fear
You are not to roam
In this forgotten place
Just the likes of me are welcome here
Everything breathes
And I know each breath
For me it means life
For others it’s death
It’s perfectly balanced
Perfectly planned
More than enough
For this man
Like every tree
Stands on its own
Reaching for the sky
I stand alone
I share my world
With no one else
All by myself
I stand alone
I’ve seen your world
With these very eyes
Don’t come any closer
Don’t even try
I’ve felt all the pain
And heard all the lies
But in my world
There’s no compromise
Like every tree
Stands on its own
Reaching for the sky I stand alone
I share my world
With no one else
All by myself
I stand alone
All by myself
I stand alone
All by myself
I stand alone

makes me feel all strong and stuff XD

-Clover

P.S. Tomorrow I promise to have a more thoughtful, put together post.

I have spent all of my life

Okay T.O.K was pretty intense today, but in that good kind of way. I’m pretty sure all I have to do today is math homework and work on some history.

Anyway I’ve decided to start researching colleges. I’m pretty set that I want to go out of state. I’m debating between;

1. California
2. New York
3. Chicago

(can you tell that I kinda want to get the feel of a real urban city?)

On top of picking a college I always have to get a major. Eeek. I was thinking about researching double majors because those sound pretty fun.

I think I want to minor in Japanese, but still clueles.Oh well a little bit of thought will make it all come around.

Sorry ’bout the short post, but I’ve got homework I should be getting to.

-Clover

the tears that I’ve cried

So schools been going for about 2 days, although I already feel like I’ve been in there for weeks!

IB makes me a bit nervous but I think I can pull it off. I’m putting off my homework for a tad bit to write this blog because my schedule book says that I have to write this and you know how I am about getting everything done. Other than the word blog todays square space says that I have to finish my math, french, and practice my french verbs. Fun stuff other than that I have the amount of sleep I got the night preceding today on there. (which was 4 hours and 30mins btw)

Oh well C’est la vie.

-Clover